Where Are You

I just cant tell. Where's the girl I know so well? She can't be gone, She fought like hell to be where she is, to belong... To be honest, To be strong... She wasn't lying when she said denial was gone... She stepped out in front of the door, & let everybody know she was whole once more... It took her years to come to terms & face the truth... It took over most of her youth... She wasn't uncouth... She wasn't aloof... But facing the truth was the fear she feared most... So where has she gone... She finally knows she wasn't always in the wrong... Everybody she knew helped along the way... They wanted her to stay a stray, She should be proud for doing it her own way... If she kept listening to what people say, She wouldn't be here today... So where is she... where as she gone...? She's not broken, just bent... Lucky for her the time she spent thinking she was wired wrong... On suicide watch they said she belonged...  She wanted to die, & believe me I done more than try... But someone up there, far & beyond made it very clear that it wasn't her time... She had to stay & lose those she holds dear... No mistakes, no come backs never to whisper to let her know they would always be near... Once again she can hear a voice from her past, the naughty voice just one shot, just one beer... You deserve a drink after all it's been such a rough year...  She argues back, & knows she a risk she can't take... but she doesn't know how much more she can take... she's not a flake, she's not on her knees... But where are you, I need you please... I don't want to buckle, I don't want to slip, I don't wanna keep going on a guilt trip... So where are you, come back & stand tall... I can tell her now queen, throne, crown...