When It Happens

I cried Why? Maybe it is because no one understands me. Doesn't stop to listen to my thoughts. Cares less about my presence to the naked eye. Doesn't Care. I cried Why? Maybe it is because they are too intrusive being happy with their lives. Because I smile a lot and I am not provoked at all by anyone. Doesn't mind. I cried Why? Because of my concealed past that I cannot share. I am unsatisfied with me and who I am. Sulking feels better to me than laughing. Hates the world. I cried Why? No one is there for me. I do not want to be figured out. Trying means nothing to me, I am not going to become flawless in any way. Love is gone. I cried Why? My questions are unanswered. Invisibility describes me. Caring deprives me. Interest excites me. Loneliness surrounds me. Is left alone. I cried Because it frees my mixed emotions. Tears are the only thing that seem to understand, comfort and help me become stronger, wiser and much more of a secret. I smile In the end when I fool others into believing that it is all okay. It is the only thing that will satisfy me.. well at least for now. Rebecca C*