When I Realized

When I realized... When I realized everything was a lie... I cant believe this whole time I was being lied to, by the person I loved the most. All these feelings, emotions, and tears were a waste of time to you I guess, right? You know I never would've thought that I'd be getting hurt so many times by the same person at once. to be honest out of all the lies I've read and heard from you was "I love you". The sad part about all of this that the person I love claims to love me back but the real behind this fake is that she loves someone else and didn't tell me so I can leave them alone and leave her, period. When I realized everything was a lie, my whole world tore apart... I don't know to handle this anymore I either get quiet and show no emotions or I leave and find somebody else to chill and talk to until she notices me gone. Everyone told me to leave her and being the person I am now, I said "no, because I don't know how to let go, I don't know how to stop loving her, and she's the only one I've ever loved like this before.