What Will It Be Like

In the long run, I know it will be fun! But what happens when everything is said and everything we do is done? Will someone remain or will there be none? I can't predict the future I know that is true, but I truly wish I knew, that I had some sort of clue so in turn I could follow through and know what I need to do. I feel lost up creek without a paddle or float! As if I'm inside a slowly sinking boat! I am going no where fast, how long will this last, will I ever surpass, this low blown blast? I know I am going to be the one who gets hurt the most inside, but I have never been someone who chooses to run and hide, I will stay by your side no matter what you decide! I know the feeling one gets when there is low and high tide! But is that enough? Please god allow me to see if he's going to call bluff!!! I have to protect my heart, right from the start, but I also have to see where this could go, even though I know, I could be the person who receives a low blow, right to the gut, but you know what? I want to be able to say I enjoyed the ride, and deep down inside, I realize I can no longer hide my true emotions that I carry with in, cause in my heart I know I belong with him.