What the Hell Happened? (Part One)

Well, this certainly hadn't turned out as planned the gun in her hand cold and tasting already like blood which is fitting for that is, after all, its purpose, to spill blood while in her mind she flew back in time to when she was a little girl the twinkle in her father's eyes his only child it was no surprise she was the center of the universe with only the occassional twinge of guilt for her brother who was not her father's son when he took the brunt of the betrayal inside she gloated while he was slapped and pummeled and she held the whole world inside her hands a beautiful world with snow covered peaks the people all healthy with rose colored cheeks while war raged all around her and millions of people as real as she went up in smoke while she laughed and joked she was unaffected safe in her world with her planets orbiting all around her predictable and unwavering savoring the sweet chocolate as it melted against her tongue while black-out curtains were hung she was safe and warm and the future held such hope, such a beautiful girl, how it warped her to be told and told, she knew she would never grow old and life would be perfect in her universe she created in her mind, but somehow things got twisted when that family friend visited, a doting uncle type, she felt the way he watched her was only to be expected but suddenly every thing changed as he threw his princess down ripped her little gown and stole from her both her viginity and her sanity; innocent child never spoke of it, never woke from it her nightmare buried deep as she plastered on her model's fake smile all the while slipping, slipping, this earth shattering agression followed by repression and