What It Wasn'T

It wasn’t because You didn’t have a car It wasn’t because you weren’t a star It wasn’t because you wasn’t a king but you were a Lion in my heart Food for thought It was ya smile Ya walk It was that scent (u left) when you had already went But left ya presence behind Wasn’t that you didn’t have but a dime and some nickels in not only the bank It wasn’t even the fact that somedays ya breath stank It wasn’t about the fact that at times I hated to love you It wasn’t the night I found out you were able to lie It wasn’t the time I noticed your wondering eyes It was the fact that you could be honest It was the reason you wanted things to be closest to perfect Don’t got nothing to do with the text messages I went through Couldn’t have been the times you didn’t do what I wanted you to do However you did things I couldn’t ever do Spoke ya mind, Touched my spine, You aint the one Not Yet You need time to collect Again it wasn’t ya hairline that made me say yes Wasn’t even the wedding dress That still hangs untainted in my closet Ain’t the days that pass that I don’t hear ya voice Some things I would change if I had a choice You know what It wasn’t even strawberries that disappear like the words I love you to places they should never go to Damn it wasn’t even the sleepless nights When we was doing wrong knowing it wasn’t right It is the fact that you taught me that I have a choice It was the opinions made prominent by your voice It’s not the fact that you had to find ya way without a shadow I can’t even say that I think I’d give anything to stand in the darkness talking more than a half a decade ago Before we learned what bills were and diamond rings Before I forgot that I am a dream come true But not right now to you It’s not that you go out with your boys and still play with toys It’s the commitment that you omit to realize is YOUR recited “Joy” This lady ain’t as pretty as you think I do some ugly things I’m writing this like my “shiit” don’t stink I don’t like pink Can’t speak my mind out side of ink Can’t stop over whelming you with every bit of me Can’t stop letting you deposit in the pit of me Can’t stop being ya checklist Don’t want to not be there when you witness the birth of ya kid No I didn’t fall for that “first kiss” You was playing me too And I’m a fool cause I let you Yeah I was dumb to play stupid I know more than you think I did Wasn’t that the whole point of being a part of ya life? My only question is why did you ask Me to be ya wife?