What is self-evident again

,,When he pointed out I forgot my bag under the table and he called out my name, I have captured this moment 1to1 into my head. He said: ,,adna, you forgot your bag" with a such gentle voice"" ,,The voice doesn't change within one day" ,,maybe it was a long time ago when I heard him right? That must be it" My ankles started showing crusty blood spots. My big sisters eyes got bigger: ,,why, why arw you telling me this?" I lay my arms on my table: ,,I asked the AI, it said that it must be because I have longed for something being normal again. For him speaking to me like that again. Why am I not over it already" ,,You are" I tilted my head While she walked out the room, ,,You just want your guilt to stop"