What Eyes Cannot See

The thoughts washing over me Confused with reality Gripping on to my mind They never let go The things done to me That eyes cannot see Will never escape my head Forever scarred by the abuse The physical and the mental Causing flashbacks to those moments When the abuse was at its peak Losing the ability to anchor Being uncontrollably swept away By memories I want burned out forever Those unspeakable experiences The fear that if I say them out loud Than they will become real again And use me in the same way that they did before A never-ending worry that puts a filter on the world And makes every person someone to fear Feeling like prey under their eyes The innate instinct to run Overpowering all other senses That if they were to happen again My mind and body would not survive But would be shattered And the pieces trampled through Until they become unrecognizable Every touch causing a flinch An uncomfortable sensation Having to remind yourself that you are not in danger Becomes an impossible feat to accomplish What lurks in the dark doesn’t haunt me But what goes out into the light of day If only I could become a venomous creature That could keep itself safe from the predators that are all around Then maybe I would not be so broken But until that happens All I can do is hide What eyes cannot see