What Do You See: Part One

Hate... Everybody, Everybody wants something... Nobody, really cares... Am I, the only true being in this world? They hold me captive, I don't care... I've lost everything, morals and my self dignity... I'm very destructive... I tried my best to make good, through every bad I went thru... I never looked down on anybody... Never degraded others... Yes, America sucks... The whole damn world sucks.... It's an oblivion, a halocaust... It seems to be these days, jail is perfect salvation. I've lived on both sides.. I've lived many ways... I don't consider to be perfect... But I am true, and I'm good as long as I'm treated right... I treat everyone the way they treat me... If you're nice, then I'm nice... If you're gonna be psycho with me, I'll give psycho back... I'm an environmental chameleon, a social chameleon also... I do have drawbacks, and I have more than enough personalities... I do consider myself to be A MARTYR... I do care about the safety of others, I want a perfect world... I want the world to let go of all the MADNESS... To much hate and bitterness... Competition, everybody is out to out do the other... False advertisement... The American Lie is FREEDOM... Was I born in here??? Hell, I wish I wasn't born at all... The scale of justice has been tipped... Majority of people are bad... Love, I thought there would be hope... Love doesn't even exist no-more... Relationships, the other damn partner saying you owe them a favor... "A what?" I owe nothing!!! And then there's a price... I thought Love was free, at no cost... you either accept it, or throw it away... Nobody knows the meaning of LOVE... I see it all as Pendora's Box... For all that was release, Hope was locked inside... If there was anyway, I could change the world... I would.... If I could die and my death could put Love and Peace in Every ones hearts, I'd kill myself... Just because I care and wanted all the chaos to stop... This is not Right... This is Life... We are our own Corruption... We made our own DOOM... We've polluted our own atmosphere and environment... We've poisoned our children, with violence and hate... We are killing ourselves slowly... One by one we drop like flies... And who do we blame??? written in CCJ 08-10-2000