What Do I Do Now

Nocturnal go betweens as I wish wonder why and pine and ponder the thrill of you, in-sensed enraged plight unforgiving unkind-blistered human frality relentless fingers grip and squeeze the terrified emotion from a craving heart strong with beaded bridled bullshit; unsustained in a pisstrom of anxious delight paradise lost with a fabled man truth sick honesty no trip to bountiful bliss love lost passion dismissed and the threat of a dismantled ego leanloins in jerked off ruins. No feelings everfelt inherent in the now metaphor of existent fervor of that which I place myself in the present tense of future fear yearnings. My skull, cosmic of crippled cell thoughts---transient trenchings. Forbid my manual range inept incomplete incoporeal disavowed--I wishI mayIwishImight have the wish I-------------------Eternity Heights upscaled past reason's dictates a surrender gorge. regardless of quicksand times and blows dealt regardless of "life goes on"--stop-leave-don't outcomes regardless of mirror mimed politicolove entgrails whom shout "NO" from their lovelung tops of false de-saintitty thesis. On&on&on from charm to harm all in drop C alphabet olleyolleyinfree stew. Slowly I lose a little more cranial fragment appetitie at yesterday's testicular terminal power love lost lunch. Another naked being for the mating composite heap. Next!