We Don'T

We don’t talk no more Were not friends And you don’t want me Not in this life or the next Say I’m to butch for you I don’t see how When I do all the things you like You use to call me to your bead A usage I could take But now you don’t even beckon me to eat Breakfasts lunch and dinner And I don’t know how to approach you in this state When I know you don’t even want to see my face no more I’m a bad person A ***** that lies too much And yell to loud all filled up with anger then and now Because I only told you once that I wanted you And you told me you did not want a relationship So why bet a dead hours It won’t get up to let you ride Dead is dead And life is breath Yet I can’t breathe when I’m around you or away I guess this is how Zombies feel I’m living in the cracks of to day and tomorrow I’m a bad friend A ***** that lies and yells to much I’m always angry And it radiates off on to you A heater in summer days you can never turn off And you can’t deal with this heat Just two people trying to be whole And two puzzle pieces that don’t match Can’t be smashed together I’m to proud to beg you back Yet if I did Got on my knees and kissed your feet I don’t think it would get me any were You have heard all but this one The only one who has read them all But you will never read these words That are rushing out like vomit And I don’t know how to handle Seeing your face every day I want to touch you Hold your hand because I’m sad I can’t seem to let things go I ****ed up and I know But the secrets that we shear I do keep A keeper of so many keys Yet not one that will open the door to you A Stone Butch Blue I could never warm I miss you now And you miss how I use to be Ask what I want from you Dead is dead And a Zombie friendship will never raise agene So why do I let you flout in my mind I want to beery this friendship Like you beery the dead Yet I can’t lift the shovel to start The cryptic hole to beery your soul Or maybe it’s my soul I wish to beery But no one can lend a hand When suicide Had her legs splayed out wide