Way Back Again, Part 1

I know I must take the long old road Where we Skiid on the ice cold It was the only thing I remembered about seventh grade Our hearts were getting easier to hold on Although it was never hard We visit the area we met We sneak out to have a cigarette You put up with my glum-ruled set Whatever you had said Will you wash it away The taste of all the pain Couldn't ever tell my mom All the things I’d done With a girl back then But I was down and you were around for a while I told her as I went home that I was too young But she just said “Relax. Everyone does it by now. Just hold on, it’s no big deal.” I saw my own self from beneath the clouds I was scared I saw my face wither and die and freeze off my head I saw the pain I had always tucked away Tucked deep deep away Tried to forget until now But it’s so hard to cry But you are the master of your own fate Foreshadowing hate Why do I always wish for then When those days were such a waste of time Wishing to be way back again It could have been so good But even the angels tell me I was a fraud I cried in the night Wondering who that girl was then A sweet child I had loved She told me there were stars Where the warriors watch But I can’t even taste my sourness Walk on, we walk on But we could have met that day If only your mother let us go play But we walk alone Through the snowy neighborhood park What, what did you say? About red tailed Robins who nest in winter You always were fascinated by such things But I only liked history that pre dates I cry in the night And the angels tell me I’m wrong I cry in the night I walk alone through the melting park Now that her mother shut her in the dark Now she’s all alone And there’s nothing I can do about it all (TO BE CONTINUED...)