Water Under the Bridge

As much as I cared & wanted to be there to share life & space, u forced my love away. I tried... exposed the depths of my heart, mind & invested time. Got lost in u gladly but sadly ... Itz water under the bridge. Speaking resounding peace into my realty & what I must be... strong enough to let go & let God refill me. Rejecting the weakness that craves, the waves... back & forth, up & down, we crashed & burned, yet... I've learn. Rising from the ash & resurrected from rejection also known as my blessing ... the break of chains. Tears stains & pain is weakness leaving the body once the lessons is received, u can't hold on to what's is not meant to be, chasing a dream will only lead to you being depleted but I'm undefeated. Borrowed strength from the how I got over'z ... the praises, the truth, remembered how I nurtured the girl who was damaged in my youth. How I cried & asked why, but my life moved on, took the strength from the hurt of my past in my arms, full armor... Strong!! Daily Psalms... & remembering never to loose Isaiah No weapon's formed against me shall prosper... So try again player. No longer victim to ur lust, I shall conquer & defeat, remember my spirit is willing even though my flesh may get weak. My children daily reminders of motivation ... they're beacon of light, morning Starr... devour the darkest nights woman of God shine bright. What I gave u is water under the bridge... I am peace amongst ur troubled waters, I am calm & victorious in my escape living to make the best of everyday. Learning to invest in myself & love fearlessly in he who loves me ... all praises to God who is worthy to be praised FOR EVERYTHING, thank u for ur forgiveness & the gift of repentance... renewed faith... I dropped my baggage yes I lost weight... I noticed I'm lighter & much healthier now without the dramaticz & demons trying to convert me to be who u felt I should be. The equation 1plus 0 is still 1... the subtraction u... u had nothin when I met you ( unconditional love)... I upgraded u. Tried N da past to add urself unto me, tried to use & abuse me but now....Water under the bridge! This expression simply my release with ease, it is what it is. But I'll tell u what it's not....Itz not holding on to the abuse, women/men must speak of truths & act on what is known as freedom. free ourselves or drown deeply in the waters ... under the bridge! u must choose. {Peace & blessings to whomever reads this expression. It wasn't to bash! It was simply to say that sometimes in relations/relationships we settle for that rob's us mentally, emotionally, & spiritually. I had the power every time to break the chains in that moment but... I subjected myself to the undeserving. Now that I am out of the belly of the beast "once again" lol... I say unto myself & u... if u know better do better ... if it doesn't feel right it isn't. If it hurts... Itz not love. If ur light is not shining bright due to the shade of someone who doesn't care.... Please move on & let it be water under the bridge. Let the healing began}. Peace & blessings as the sunshine embraces u this morning or as the moon caresses you beneath the ~Blackstarrz