Wasted Time

All the years spent together, now dust, meaningless and gone How in the world am I supposed to start anew or continue on I didn't expect to be hurt so maliciously especially after what my first husband did to me Doom and gloom over this life I truly thought was over the day we became a couple but alas I was just fooling myself I overlooked all the little betrayals and disrespect, then held on to the hopes of what would love bring me next Bits of happiness seem to keep me hanging on to a delusion that our love was ever strong Such a fool was I to believe again in someone who would crush me in the end Support across the board seemed difficult and too much only when it mattered to you did I receive that loving touch You too selfish and me too selfless has put us in this condition No longer under your valence no longer needing permission Heartaches, mind reels and body feels numb So it is I must continue life, no longer with a bum