Washing, But Still Dirty.
i wash my body,
my hair,
my face.
because i know what litters my mind.
that im perverted, and lazy.
that i gossip too much,
using beauty for destruction.
manipulating those around me, to do what i say,
because i want it.
i wash my clothes, because those smells cant be mine.
i shouldnt be able to recognize drugs and cologne.
i shouldnt have to cry, and try to sort out what has happened.
i brush my teeth, and crawl into bed,
because thats what they do in stories,
thats what the innocent do.
i try not to cry into my pillow,
because i know it will be soggy and wet and cold.
i open the window to let fresh air in,
but the room in which i sleep is still stocked,
with smoke, and music, and tears, and sick laughter.
nothing could wash away my sins, of what i have done.
no tears,
no soap,
no blood of the lamb.
i refuse to be washed in holy water,
jesus' tears,
a churches hypocricy.
i refuse to do anything else so fake.
Copyright © Lisa Barton | Year Posted 2006
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