Was I letting out a little laugh

Quirky, WOULDN'T I HAVE CALLED MYSELF CRINGE?! Covered my face, I stay sat aback. Haven't you, liked to stay by her? Was it because you liked her or tell me, are my eyes fouled by hatred. Am I that dumb that my brain is not working, Not my heart even? Words I can not speak, Please is weird. Why are you telling me THAT I NEVER HATED HIM?! WAS I NOT SAYING THAT I CAN NOT STAND IT? WERE THE TEARS SHEDDING WITHOUT A REASON? If it was about, realizing, knowing, living Living by taking to the side, Breaking, loving,crying Was it something you wanted? BUT THEN WHY ARE YOU FEELING BAD?! Why, why HAVE YOU GAVE ME THAT THING? WAS IT FOR ME, HER WHY?