Walking This Mile

I accept what i need offer up what's left Let ridicule fall on ears that are deft Just as a fisherman catches fish on his hook I write out my poems and put together books The reason I do it is clear as can be I feel it's what the Lord ask of me For 41 years I had no idea I was a poet But if I couldn't cook it I could damn sure grow it My life consumed by Marijuana and speed Trusting in them to provide what I need They replaced my job and even my love They were everything that I held above They picked me up whenever i felt low If I got to high they helped me to slow No, I didn't write poems or watch the T.V. Never touched a computer said, "Thats not for me" Traded in the girls because the next on was cuter Woke up with a shot went to bed with a hooter I would run day and night until I would drop Running more from myself than from any cop I chemically induced away all my dreams See rivers take mothers after being formed by streams These days my head feels like it's in a vice I'll tell you right now my pains nothing nice Weekly shots I take for the Hepatitis C Epidural Steroid blocks in the spine for me Every doctor I see I greet with a smile Not feeling to good but I will after while They say my attitude is one that is great I see the beauty of love with no time for the hate I have no reason for anger or time to be mad No reason for all that this is my bad This isn't that bad hell I've suffered more At least I can turn my knob and walk out the door Reality is real but it's also a dream Things that are clear may not be as they seem The Lord is my master to whom which I serve For he's already given me more than I deserve Children who love me and a beautiful wife All the blessings a man needs in life So Doctor tell me how can I not smile At least I'm not alone walking this mile I have you guys and the Lord walking with me And thats about as beautiful as beautiful can be I dedicate this poem to all of my doctors Dr. Garrison - Primary Dr. Merliss - Neurologist Dr. Aldwari - Infectious Disease Specialist Dr. Johnson- Pain Management Specialist Dr. Beck - Physical Therapist I feel very blessed to have such a fine team working so hard on my recovery. I also wish to thank everyone for all the Prayers I have received. I love you guys.