Waiting On the Lord

Beat model, the truth I just defeated a temptation see Deal was soo good but then I thot o revelation Fought it to the ground like a superpower nation Stillitroselikeaboxerthrowingthrowingpunchesinmydirection My goodness And Jehova’s my witness It is hard be-in a righteous man in pursuit of these richess See a man gotta do what a man gotta do Then a man gotta die then account before the heavens My goodness Who’s me, u don’t know me U think you know me’ I don’t even know me I’m nobody, I speake so much nonsence ignore me If am somebody and speake to you some sence, applaud me I heard God has got a justice system So strict they only let in the souls that r cleanest (What of the rest)………….”heard they get roasted” (you believe) …….…….”my thoughts are clouded” Mammalian mind of mines money mobilized Society Stressing on status seeking to stabilize My goodness……….crimes habitualized World without worries it is hard to visualize Swirl back to before adam on the first date Before the devil had us caged if we cld have a new slate Perfect definition of happily ever since But then, humanity’s mammalian we had to let in sin All a gat. Is a lyf, that I don’t really deserve SoIthankGodevydayfornotspillingmylife’sresserve They pinned Him to the cross Like a notice to the world readin the devil’ in-charge I hear bells tolling from a distance like a calling I don’t ask for whom they toll I know theyre warnin of my falling Evyday am on my knees seekin a spiritual breakthrough Then am- on ma- feet re- a lize- my heart- is hard- to break- thru My goodness Dear God, it is me again Still alive and kicking, thanks to you my life has not ended Means I got a purpose unfulfilled am workin hard on it For my latest on my page of sins I beg you pardon it I’v got a faith so shaky Likeaweakradiosignallandidonotwannafakeit So am praying…….break this chain that enslaves me I trick-my soul-am too-weak to-be what-you pur-posed me-to be Dear God-I am trapped-in a thunderstorm My worries keep me wide awake a worried prayer’s becoming norm Mind’s eye’- seeing -things I -should not- even- see at –all Am trapped-in a swirl- sucking me into oblivion Dear God, thisshouldnotend-in an amen But soon I drift off and act like early days cavemen Am prayin for faith the size of biblical - days men Noah, Abraham, At times I feel like I have had enough Life is pushing me to harden up Trajectory steepening isn’t life already hard enuff Scared to death of dying yet you lookin forward to bein dead Strange anticipation yu just not so sure you ready yet Other side foggy I could take the wrong turn Am not my life’s time keeper, I drop dead I burn See my life is on a countdown soonerolater am at zero Revelation scary my generation needs a hero Mental degradation filth propagation annihilation Of spiritual ways plight of my generation See………I gat a conscious conscience But somehow my mind prioritizes nonsence Gat ink on ma heart says God is watching But somehow my heart still succumbs to longings On the move again, bag packed with all my belongings Long walk ahead o me I still packed my longings My goodness…….