Victory
I look for words to describe this grief,
But the pain is just too deep,
Must I do what I have always done,
Pretend it's not as bad until the pain is all gone,
Or is it really as painful as I think?,
Am I overthinking everything?,
What if I looked at it from a new perspective?,
What the darkness tried to steal, God healed through rejection,
I never wanted to ever leave you, but I knew I had to,
Your healing meant more to me than the love we hung onto,
I knew in those moments God was leading me to leave,
I also knew God was also healing me,
As painful as it was for me to walk out that door,
I did everything I could for you, I could do no more,
I promised you forever, that I would never leave,
And the truth is I kept my promise, just not physically,
I hold on with my heart knowing I loved you more,
I sacrificed everything just to see you cured,
I could not bear to lose you to death,
As you refused to get help over and over again,
I knew if I left you would have no choice but to go,
It felt like a knife in my chest to let you go,
I questioned everything about myself before I walked out the door,
The constant prayers and tears, I can't be selfish Lord,
So now I sit in silence, and pray for you to see,
Because I know that God is healing you.. this is victory not defeat.
Copyright © Cortney Bartholomew | Year Posted 2024
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