Smoking and Drinking

Smoking and drinking what the hell were u thinking ? Theres No food on the table , the lights always blinking We ain't got cable I thought we were stable, now They want us out of the building! It's your fault to why I'm sinnin and stealing . Do you know what the hell Ive been feeling , Watching the person who should be your hero Popping pills in the kitchen ; cutting your self because u feel like nobody's listening . You ain't got a job, so you're selling your body for 50 bucks to anybody that's willing . Just so you can give it to some dudes that be dealing. Giving up yourself for heroin The pain in her voice is bellowing Empty bottles by the pillow - an Do you know how many times I've thought of killing my self! I'm here for you but you dont want the help. Hollow tips laying on the shelf I hide the gun , so the devil wouldnt catch you if you fell ; becuse without a doubt u deserve to go to hell and burn in a cell for the burdens you've made me feel.  We can't afford the meal, still ain't got a deal , I know your heart done broke whens that gonna heal ? Crack pipes all up on the floor , demons waiting at the door . I can't take no more , she's begging me for more , I wanna just let her go , turn her in and forget the sin but the pain she gets without it is hurting me much more . Now where the hell is God ? He must not love the poor , the Devils at the door he accepts the flawed; I can't be wrong when survival's my cause. In trying get us out she just cares about Hennessy some backwoods and the kush up in her mouth. I can't take it anymore I wanna break out of this nightmare, I'm tired I just wanna scream and shout , maybe finally take a deep breath of fresh air. I can't because theres no one to answer my prayers and all you can do is blindly stare , It's not fair but lately I've been thinking our ship set sail now its sinking. I give up the pains too much I'm tired of living , no more hope I give up on wishing; You're always missing you never listen, I dont know what else to do so I guess I'll just start smoking and drinking.