Used to be a home

Everything about this place reminds me of you

From the couch where you once sat to the bed we used to lay in 

From the kitchen where I once cooked for you to the bathroom where I held back your hair

From your handprint on my bathroom mirror to the chair I always saved for you

Every part of this place is infused with memories of you and they won’t go away 

Maybe it’s a good thing I’m leaving this place that I first called home 

The place I hoped we’d raise a child and have a family

The place I where hoped to grow gray and old with you

But you left…

And now my home, the one place I should feel happy, is shrouded in a cloud of deep sorrow

My house is no longer my home, but my prison

Where my mind is kept under constant assault with memories of our past

Where I have trouble sleeping because I got used to doing it with you next to me 

Where I have trouble eating because you aren’t across the table sharing the meal with me 

Where the one person I love most in the world took my heart and crushed it under their foot

This place used to be my home. 

Now it’s a constant, heartbreaking reminder of what I’ve lost

Who I’ve lost…

I will always love you and I hate myself for it

Because it would be so much easier to hate you 

For making my home, a prison. 

Signed,
Me
Copyright © | Year Posted 2025

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Hall Avatar
March 14, 2025 at 1:46 PM
Still a favorite. Looking forward to reading more, Evan
Agustin Avatar
February 11, 2025 at 10:03 PM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Welcome to Poetry Soup. I welcome you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
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February 9, 2025 at 12:01 PM
Powerful and sad. Tough being trapped in a house where good memories were once shared and then had them ripped out.
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