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I let my mind think back to a time.
A place where I can drift off, and be
free.
Laugh incessantly, heartbeats that
sound like African drums, the
clambering of the words love,
happy, trust fallin' from our lips.
I love these sweet memories, they
can taint the saddest part of me.
Back when I was free from this thing
called heart break.
Even in times of celebration I always
feel the faint ache.
The tears I cry are like acid rain.
I gotta think back to happier times
or I'll crumble.
I'll fall for the world to see, not as
strong of a girl I used to be.
I always STUMBLE.
With my head down I say that
shamefully.
There's a risk in love, a gamble you
see.
It's all smoke and mirrors until
things get real.
Realer than 5,000 soldiers standing
ready, guns drawn—ready to attack.
Can you imagine that?
I'm going through an internal war.
Battling feelings, feelings that are
just that feelings.
I wanna take these feelings and
compress them into a ball, into the
abyss they would flow.
We can't always get what we want.
I'd give anything to get that old
thing back.
Give my left arm to have me back.
She's not ever returning, she'll
never be the same.
Next time I'm being extra careful,
because if it happens again maybe
it's me to blame.
I'm tired of this pain.
So, I let my mind think back to a
time.
A place where I can drift off, and be
free.
Laugh incessantly, heartbeats that
sound like African drums, the
clambering of the words love,
happy, trust fallin' from our lips.
I love these sweet memories, they
can taint the saddest part of me.
Copyright © Cecilia Rose | Year Posted 2014
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