Untestable Time

I tried to beat the clock as I run forward… I tried to dry my tears and be less awkward I still have a tiny bit of pride in me fortunately I will survive society's labels of predictable conditions I am the Lord's child – that’s all I can possibly say All I do is try, try, try and I fall into temptation easily I collide like the tears from my eyes I ride the vehicle of shame and vanity… I am sorry for telling white lies… Lord, show me Your narrow path of spectacular wonders Just don’t condemn me so harshly – Although your mercy is as large as the sea… Time and time again, I take many risks and chances – the usual and apparently the norm Where have you been? Were you in the wilderness of my mind? Don’t enter my desolate dorm I’m lonely and I need more attention Lord, you gave me life beyond reason I’m pathetic and worthless… I know I need way more hopefulness However, I want faith, which is far better than worse I am walking around while carrying my masculine purse You made me give in to the tongue of tainted, traumatizing transistors Yes, I have tried and it was difficult, Going against time and its confusion pool of truth and loves Push me, pull me and squeeze me close while we avoid outlandish occult Blowing like the blessed breeze… I am about to pray on my knees I lost my plane of thought, so please… Have a heart and a heart to set me free, my friend We will make it from beginning to end I don’t mean to overwhelmingly offend I kept testing You, Lord of Accord I kept sinning that sin for a thousand years It’s all because I was ashamed and bored My mind, which is nearly running out of time, is a pasture of imaginary peers If you want, you can stay and vanish my tears…increase not my fears..take it all Away…away… Along with anger, resentment, jealousy through the years…I must stand tallwith no appall Even today Rescue me… This indignation Of losing my writings… Makes me upset with unexplainable hesitation I’m tear-jerking it all away… I don’t want to feel fearful, yet temporary frustration That is an unpleasant ride in the bus, even with surreal sensation Satisfaction takes action and good interaction… I need a distraction…empathy is difficult to find I want hope and happiness I need someone to hold on to I need to cut off the rope of distress Help me listen to wisdom and understand nonetheless It takes time To feel sublime It takes time For us to feel alright It’s unpredictable It’s despicable It’s unbreakable It’s unbearable Wait…I’ll look at the positive pros for once……… It’s a blessing It’s like an everlasting I’m progressing He shall Heal my sorrow sting Time chases after me I chase after it, I see What goes awfully awry – Karma will make you cry The auras centuries ago Makes me feel less low And more high with delusional illumination Destiny and delight is my main destination I need and want His word to lead me the way Be with me yesterday, tomorrow and today Untestable time Is a splendid rhyme Free falling gaily Without unnecessary stress, Scrubbing my clean slate Of joyfulness and gladness With past grime…well…as of late – I’m an empath of sadness Did I pass my life's time test? The test I adore to the max *yeah right, it’s what I detest* Why is wasting time such a pest? The auras I’ve seen in my lifetime has made me rest at my best Untestable time Will renew your shine You’re the sun this time Resonate and rise, sunny friend of mine Shun out the moon I feel this afternoon It’s a gloom bloom I oddly assume… I told you to take care of me beforenoon I fall down unto the carpet of gloom Untestable time, Could you allow me to rest? Could you bring out my best? Could you allow me to walk north to south and east to west?