Unsure

I look at the sea bright, blue and deep A vast empty surface, like my heart, has secrets to keep But lurking inside are thoughts that silently creep Into the recesses of my soul and make me weep The day is bright and vibrant, but I feel a void in me There are people all around me, but why do I feel so lonely My lips are smiling but my eyes are sad, they fail to see That though the distances are large, your heart still beats for me The day is still bright, then why does despair set into my heart Why do I feel this pain, why does it tear me apart Why can’t I believe that soon you will be close to me Why do I have a gnawing doubt that you are retreating from me The veil over my eyes has made the sun set for eternity What will it take for me to get out and be free How do I rid myself of my doubts and this cancerous uncertainty When will I stop thinking that you are hiding your true self from me I wonder at times if you got a raw deal in me I wonder if you will feel repelled when you hold me All I wish is for you to always be happy And maybe once in a while, just think of me