Unspoken Longing

My mind is speaking The feeling of being alone is deep Kind of rejected and disturbed Mental health is deprecating Looking lost when things are in your head Feeling so emotionless and empty Jobless me! I seek for a Job The atmosphere becomes cloudy and smoky Disappointed written over my face For saying a truth not meant to be told Our current language is silence Even when we have a lot to tell Yet it is the only language we feel we understand Feeling insecure and round an environment Still the feeling comes from a right angle Not sure if reciprocated Trying to get back to my comfort zone My brain sends a freaky signal to my body A million nerve, all doing the same work At the same tune sends the same impulse At this point am emotionally numb Making this Feel like a mistake