Unsent Letters

All that I have left are pictures and treasured memories anymore, That is all that I have left of some one I love and adore. Left behind inside my chest is a black hole, a hollow void, just empty, Since my heart was ripped out & discarded the morning you left life too early, So great was your pain, I can not fathom how hard those days must have been, All that is left are our dreams of us adventuring coming to an end, All that I have left is the memories and monotony each day, Placing on this familiar façade to tell everyone that I'm 'okay', How great it was to rekindle our bond after so many years apart, But the damage had already been done to your heart, If only healing our bond had healed you too, If only we could go back in time with what we knew, I miss you, your laugh, your grin, I miss how our adventures used to begin... All that I have left are the echoes of 'hey, check this out' in my head.... Echoes that cause me to drown in tears that my eyes endlessly shed, Drowning in the memories and questions, I can't help but cry, Every night my sorrowful tears send me to sleep like a rending lullaby, Even my dreams torture me reminding me of skipping with you arm in arm, Because it is all a mirage, bitter reality hits with my alarm, I know in time, I’ll learn to handle the pain from the loss of your death, I’m sorry, I wasn’t there while you took your last breath, I wish you knew how I‘ll always feel my sister, my first and best friend, and all the letters I've now written, but can never send. For my sister, Lana Heller-Wood 1982-2022