Unrelenting Loneliness

Yesterday I was oblivious and carefree,
looking forward to seeing you, 
talking with you on the phone - 
your teasing voice glimmering with laughter . . .

Today my heart is a deep abyss 
that knows no bottom;
I cannot find you in the darkness 
for you have slipped beyond my reach.
No one can share my pain and loss; 
only I carried you within me, 
nestled just below my heart, 
your forming body responsive to my voice and emotions. 

Others may be familiar with this grief; 
but mine has its own individual, bitter taste. 
You are one of a kind,
no one just like you in all the universe.

My heart swells with aching sorrow;
you passed in the deep of night 
with no one by your side, 
alone, 
except for the angel who came 
to escort you from my world to His. 
Waves of loneliness sweep over me; 
I am capsized!

My baby boy you will always remain 
although you grew to be six feet tall, 
an independent, self reliant man.

There is a loneliness I know very well . . . 
each birthday, 
every holiday, 
it stands beside my bed 
waiting for my eyes to open. 
It is my companion through every day, 
raising its head at unexpected moments
to remind me that you are dead.

I could not bear this loneliness 
if One did not walk with me 
who knows it better than even I do, 
God who gave His Son for the world.

Copyright, November 16, 2014

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Date: 11/24/2014 9:28:00 PM
Faye, this is such a touching piece that I at once felt your grief, and in the midst of it; you found a bit of solace, yes? and yet, time and the Almighty is unfathomable healer. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment on my poem. I shall continue to enjoy yours. Namaste!
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Date: 11/24/2014 5:42:00 AM
beautifully wtitten as always Faye.. :) Hope you are doing fine.. :)
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Date: 11/22/2014 7:20:00 PM
Faye, I am happy to see this on the winners list. I am giving it a #7 and I am happy Frank picked it. Congratulations!
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Date: 11/21/2014 9:35:00 PM
OH MY GOSH, this was so perfect for the contest, I wish frank had given more numbered placements because there were many brilliant poems shown on loneliness and this is one of them for sure!!! (so sorry for your loss. I had a friend in poetry who lost her son to a stroke when he was only in his 30's and it brought her to become a poet to express her grief)
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Date: 11/21/2014 8:30:00 PM
This poem comes from the depths of your heart Faye and that's what makes it so touching and moving. I would put this at the top of this list in a flash but I can't do that so I'll give it a 7 and a FAV. Hugs. XOXO
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Date: 11/21/2014 11:27:00 AM
I cried on reading this Faye the hardest loss of all is the loss of a child. I feel for you dear lady congrats on the courage to write about it and for your fine win hugs
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Date: 11/21/2014 11:09:00 AM
As my tears flow for you Faye, please know this will stay with me forever more. Who could ever imagine the pain of loosing a child. I will fav this bio.
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Date: 11/21/2014 4:29:00 AM
simply heartbreaking - I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. Congrats on your HM :-) Hugs jan xx
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Date: 11/16/2014 7:03:00 PM
How terribly sad Faye. I would be inconsolable. It is something you never get over. Your poem is beautifully written. I do believe we one day meet up with our loved ones who have passed on. I am sure your son is waiting for you. Blessings and love, Connie
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