Unrelenting Loneliness

Yesterday I was oblivious and carefree, looking forward to seeing you, talking with you on the phone - your teasing voice glimmering with laughter . . . Today my heart is a deep abyss that knows no bottom; I cannot find you in the darkness for you have slipped beyond my reach. No one can share my pain and loss; only I carried you within me, nestled just below my heart, your forming body responsive to my voice and emotions. Others may be familiar with this grief; but mine has its own individual, bitter taste. You are one of a kind, no one just like you in all the universe. My heart swells with aching sorrow; you passed in the deep of night with no one by your side, alone, except for the angel who came to escort you from my world to His. Waves of loneliness sweep over me; I am capsized! My baby boy you will always remain although you grew to be six feet tall, an independent, self reliant man. There is a loneliness I know very well . . . each birthday, every holiday, it stands beside my bed waiting for my eyes to open. It is my companion through every day, raising its head at unexpected moments to remind me that you are dead. I could not bear this loneliness if One did not walk with me who knows it better than even I do, God who gave His Son for the world. Copyright, November 16, 2014 Choose a Topic Contest Heartbreak and Loss Topic