Understanding Yhwh

Do I politically understand you YHWH enough to predict you enjoy your unpersonified ego as partly successful predator-light racing against mortality shared by all living species because we are not yet godly resilient enough? To meet your supreme judgmental win/lose zero-sum standards of natural/spiritual dual/dark degeneration. Have you deliberately, with full intent, designed living systems to fall apart beyond our internal capacity to perpetually regenerate? To fragment, eventually degrade beyond autonomous recognition, Like an autumn leaf leaving ego's immortal goddess tree of life behind to fertilize future god-souled roots of nutritional RNA healthy DNA fertility of EarthMother's' self-perpetuating regenerativity; yet still squabbling, on co-empathic occasion, in-between whether the apostrophe goes lefts or rights of our original EarthSouls's. Do I understand you YHWH regeneratively win/win inclusive enough? For godly-humane compassion, resilient interdependent yang-yin communication, to live within hypothetical hyphen's' spiraling temporal health and happiness roots ZeroZen nutritional multi-regenerational imagination.