Unattempted Suicide

Wake me up after I die drowning myself from these streaming eyes killing my pain so softly within me sitting here crying, watching the blood drip down me. Swollen wrists, why can't I stop? this pain starves me with every drop buried under my own skin its hurting me inside again and again. tearing myself under this strain continuously crying, pouring out rain lying under this putrid soul bleeding so noxiously out of control becoming so intense, this pain I can't bare I'm holding on myself, choking out air breathing so faintly, thinking in despair this is only a dream, it can't be real. I'm screaming inside, I can't hide what I feel lying by myself, waiting for these wounds to heal gripeing at the blood flowing down my hand holding it between my fingers watching it sink between like sand. Letting myself drown by these tears over flown helplessly breaking every nerve, every bone I've fallen into a disaster of my own leaving myself to die, selfishly all alone.