Unanswerd Questions

Because a child was evolved, who I now no longer see Still it remains a matter unsolved yeah that is a mystery Never really knowing to whether he is or is not mine And to think yeah this year he would have turned nine I took her to court for access and saw him at the day centre But all that caused was more stress and me losing my temper I'm not the kind to just scarper, I wanted to make a statement Tell me If I am or not his farther, I wanted the acknowledgment I took it further to try to resolve issues by going to mediation But just left a case of the blues and yet another confrontation Looking back over my shoulder I wonder was it worth it though I'm told he will look for me when he gets older , I don't think so I was told that my farther, he never really wanted to know me Well you know I tryed my best that I could not to repeat history But I mean at least his name was actually on my birth certificate Though with her always felt like it was a game of devils advercut Even though we were not together was not told about the birth How could someone be so cold?, I ask is it all a child’s life is worth There was so much arguing in this relationship between her and me And her using him as a bargaining chip, when ever she wanted money It never really mattered though, even If I had the best of intensions And even now you know there’s still so many unanswered questions My brief and the courts they just seemed to side with her on the day Just disbelief, and mixed thoughts, the hardest thing was walking away Written(2004) a way of clearing my head a bit Though still feels like an open chapter, with so many unanswerd questions