Ugly beautiful

I want to write something beautiful for you How can when all I am is ugly? Grab a mirror just to be sure Reflecting sunsets and puppies Can something common be bonny? It is only in your eyes I am pretty I see your bud in the dead of May Without your gaze I’m rotting peat You are the blue wisteria lasting days These despised hands still tap futilely You ask me why I need all these drugs I tell my love they are veils to mad beauty You tell me I’m adorable like sunsets You tell me this puppy to finish a painting In my bones, ugly see beauty the best Your childish perspective is simply pure My maturity is a cracked cynical beauty With ego waking beauty descends Art is just banging on the gate of Eden With ego sleeping the drawbridge descends Adam and Eve used to be lovely A fig leaf won’t cover what’s ugly Your beauty crosses bearing my words You baptize the serpent in me A pen will not ink away my sins Child, bring me back to the Tree of Life No drink of mine will make me lovely Make my words innocent children Hate not the sins of the father There is no page for hate in beauty No room for ugly me