Two Sides of Me

I have given up So I can never say I gave it my all The only thing I can admit was The weight of failures held me down No one can convince me that There is always a reason to keep trying Because when the sun starts to rise The darkness remains I refuse to believe that There is hope for me So I always remember pain is permanent And I can't trust the fact that I can amount to something Because when I compare myself to others, I always think Have I been wrong all along? (Now read bottom up)