Twilight Is a Sudden Sadness

Who am I to know that
the existence of heaven lives
in the pause between breaths
or that the story of creation is
a searing scar in the side of Jesus?

I have collected my pleasures,
like monsoons collect the dead,
have collected my memories,
the raw force of vitality,

the swift silk of a spider’s web,
the emptiness of being, all of this:
a country of vibrant emotions.

I have touched the sea with my hands,
bringing them together, feeling the abrupt
salt between my fingers, torrid like
the stinging whip of a lover:

Her tongue burns me alive with
its naked wine; her eyes dig
into the depths of mine.

Who am I to know that the Kingdom of God
lives in the stones, the fire, the water, the mud,
or that twilight is a sudden sadness like
gray blood clots caused by black thorns?

Still, my excitement is like a tower
of energy or a vigorous burst of sperm
or the moonlight’s mysteries fitting its key
into my soul where a secret stillness

wallows in its swaggering bliss.
I have tasted the meat of the universe,
its heart, its lungs, its liver, tasting it
with my gentleness, a gentleness like

soft lips, or a feather, or a lover’s whisper:
Her mouth burns me alive with its
raw juice; her heart feeds from mine.

Who am I to know that the Supreme Spirit
lives in the flies, the lice, the grub, or that
death’s bitter sorrow lives in the dust, the bones,
the ash, or in the agony of a broken heart?

—once, Jesus summoned me. He undid
his wounds with the jagged blades of 
my tears. I held him, embracing him, saying:

My brother, my brother, my peaceful brother...
who am I... to know... who I am?

——————————————————————————
From my first book: 'In Forbidden Language'

http://www.amazon.com/In-Forbidden-Language-Dah/dp/0982874707

©dah / Stillpoint Books 2010
all rights reserved

With an introduction by Eve Hogard

Copyright © | Year Posted 2014



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Date: 2/19/2016 11:40:00 AM
So impressive. I burst into tears
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Dah Dahlusion
Date: 2/20/2016 9:07:00 AM
Thank you!
Date: 3/17/2014 3:48:00 PM
Breath-taking...so much powerful life and imagery! You are a master Dah!
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Date: 4/24/2014 1:33:00 PM
Heather, Thank you for this powerful comment. Bravo to you!
Date: 2/28/2014 12:34:00 PM
Woah fascinating poem. In line with contemporary agnosticism. And yet i am more agnostic i.e (doubtful) about theories and not knowing God than agnostic about His existence. Your quirky phrasing is admirable. Pls review my latest poem too.
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Date: 4/24/2014 1:35:00 PM
Thank you for this enjoyable perspective. Bravo, to you!
Date: 2/12/2014 3:01:00 PM
This reminds of the writing of a former student. Twisted use of words to create a slightly disturbing image. Great use of figurative language. Love it.
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Date: 2/28/2014 11:46:00 AM
Thank you!
Date: 2/12/2014 9:05:00 AM
This is part of a published work? Impressive. Thank you for sharing this one with us.
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Date: 2/28/2014 11:48:00 AM
Thank you, Poet, and, yes, it's from my first book.
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