Turn Around

I’m hating myself for the person I’ve become I’m different to all And not just some I swear a chimp would succeed more than me isolation my best friend I believe Intelligence is there but I live like I’m dumb progression always stalls I guess I’m a chump I left it to fate when I went for suicide it was chance pure chance I really should’ve died there’s no reason at all that I would be found I thought I’d be placed 6 foot underground So I live with this hate that I have for myself I will never have a family with this mental health I must have been Hitler in my last life Cus nothing good occurs just misery and strife Left-handed right handed ADHD depression self loathing and anxiety, I’m sick to death of how I be it keeps me inside every day I say I’ll fight then I just hide, I haven’t got a drive I haven’t got pride How can I fight with desire to die how can you make life when you ain’t really alive then I ask, If I feel like this I should be proud I survive Trying to finish me off but can’t stop my stride, And if I ever meet depression in the physical form I will inflict more damage than a biblical storm, I think the anger hands me an angle but unsighted what good is a candle senses blind and the brain sits tangled but the body fresh able not mank or mangled, in a fight I fight if I can coordinate if you move and think you can harness strength Sighted unsighted you ain’t damned or too late If you can move and think you must operate change your world if it’s bringing you down climb up it laugh and clown around Cus everybody is destined for the ground when everyone stays no thoughts sight or sound so taste the air the nectar and flair allow the dreams that are not there smell the roses get caught on the nettles And if life is bad refuse to settle I’m not thinking of the person I’ve become but what I can build what can be done I miss the people the scenes and sun why am I sitting when the option is run why am I thinking of what is and has been wiped the hate and mean clear so the knocker is clean set out and enjoy the dreams achievable always be positive because the air is breathable Reach for the impossible however unbelievable I stand unbeaten and therefore unbeatable