Trying To Figure It Out

Right now in my life I’m at a turning point Trying to be an adult and not disappoint I realize I’m not a child anymore But I don’t know what my future has in store Taking on the challenges of living on my own Planting life within the ground and having those seeds sown Driving a car, paying bills while going to school Not living with my parents; under my own rule Finding a career; something I’m good at and enjoy Trying to find a full time job or place that will employ Trying to find a wife with whom I’ll settle down Finding a home and raising kids in a quiet homely town Growing up and trying to make something of myself But all of this cannot be done unless you find yourself I know that all my poems may seem contradictory One moment I seem really down and then talk about victory One moment I talk about heartache, then about purpose I’m trying to express my emotions that lie below the surface Everyday I battle things that lie within my mind But I try to give others hope, assist them, and be kind I’m at a point in my life where I’m trying to find myself My future now is much too hazy and won’t reveal itself I thank you for reading these poems and letting me speak my mind Maybe some inspiration or hope from these words you’ll find I’ll still keep searching for the answers to find what life’s about For now my life’s a mystery; I’m trying to figure it out