Transformed By Willingness

I've been transformed by willingness, and a desire to move forward without keeping sad things in mind. Confident to smile with surprise and allowing love to flow in; faces don't avoid my glances that were unfriendly and sullen. Something that happens unexpectadly can give someone an unusual thrill; I distrusted people who were different from me...having no character, no will. Followed by my shadow, fear captured me to create unnecessary fright; my room became my habitat and escape from a society claiming their plight. With no friends to meet at cafes and local restaurants, I closed my windows, prohibiting a glint of sunshine...assuming it wasn't meant for me, but for others. Glued to a wide screen, watching documentaries of tragedies and unaviodable fates; empathizing with them, and yet convinced that I shouldn't have been grabbing at straws. Hackneyed words came out of my mouth, a habitue' of negative and dubitable thoughts; and filled with their drudgery,I stopped listening to positive folks, thus, doubling my loads. How can one be transformed by willingness? Discard the habits that amount to nothing; find the source of your uselessness, and be inspired by all who have achieved their goal. Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci