Touched By Suicide

DIFFICULTY: -noun
a trouble or struggle; something that is hard to understand or surmount

I’ve felt hell’s fire and dealt with many circumstances I may confide- But the most difficult thing I have to live with is being touched by suicide. She brought sunshine to my rain and day dreams of true compassion- That was my beloved sister - Karen…so full of life long dreams and passion. -so I thought… Truth be told the last six years have been the worst years of my life- Remembering her final days on earth, so full of self-hatred and strife. She went from a blazing fire to embers of ashes in all of one glance- And I knew deep down inside she really never had a living chance. -this I knew… See, suicide is a tricky situation when I stop and think of her reasons- Looking back, she seemed to have a different personality for every season. The anguish I am left with bleeds my soul dry and heart ripped to shreds- If only I could have given her a healthier life, more happiness instead. -my only wish… “How do I cope?”, one may ask when wondering how I still live in grief- I need to say the greatest gift is my quill that brings me honest relief. I had days of mourning and nights of weeping without a breath- And many times when I wished I too, that I ended up leaving in death. -sad days encountered… Life is so difficult even when you are having the greatest of days- But when dealing with such a tragic loss it’s worse in so many ways. People always tell me, “don’t worry honey, time always heals”- Well I say right back to them, “you just don’t know how it feels”. -pain never passes… A Difficult Topic For You Poetry Contest Sponsor: Lewis Raynes Date Written: September 23, 2016
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Canerdy Avatar
September 27, 2016 at 8:44 AM
Beautiful, poignant write, Jan--Congratulations on your win. Janice
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September 27, 2016 at 9:02 AM
thank you sweet Janice :)-luloo
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September 27, 2016 at 8:39 AM
Beautifully expressed, Laura. Congratulations. ...Fran
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September 27, 2016 at 9:01 AM
thank you Fran :)-luloo
Darling Avatar
September 25, 2016 at 12:32 PM
7! There are no words! Beautiful, heart felt poem! You are very brave with an eloquent heart, thanks for sharing your beauty!
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September 25, 2016 at 12:49 PM
Thank you sweet Chelsie :)-luloo
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September 23, 2016 at 5:25 PM
Laura my 24 year old daughter is an addict. She is presently 6 months clean. She has survived several deaths of her close friends including her boyfriend a year and half back. Looking back I don't know how I survived her worst days. Needles and blood everywhere in my house. All I could do was continue to love her to support her. I spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on rehab for her. I still worry but I hope she will be ok now. Excellent write. A Fav! Lots Of Love Armand.
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September 23, 2016 at 5:42 PM
thanks Maurice...(soupmail) :)-luloo
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