Today's the Day

Today's the day, or so I tell myself, That my apathy begins to wane The day I forget who I've become And start my life anew Today's the day that I lock my pain away Garnered by years of lifes' enigmatic lessons I did not want to learn Attending the school of hard knocks I did not enroll Today's the day that I be brave The day I put my foot down To root out this melancholy No more giving in or hiding in my own shadow Today's the day I put my favourite mask away My protector from inquisitive minds For the more they question The harder it gets for me to show my face Today's the day that I take control Of my future, of my destiny And also my emotions Those that have squeezed my eyes dry I wish I could say that that day is now But the sky is a deeper shade of grey My mind is foggy and unclear Today may not be the day but that day will come