Today

I must be crazy Losing my touch Can't think of anything Let me just stay in my bed I want to cry so much My head is spinning too much Still not enough reason to start crying Today I managed to stop myself again To be a winner, to be on top That's how I've been raised Nowadays, that person is not around anymore Those flashbacks doesn't serve me well I keep forgetting things too much these days I drive myself around here and there I couldn't even smile My mind doesn't even remember ways to do the simplest task So I stop doing anything Once in a while I ask myself 'What makes you this way?' There's still no answer to that question Maybe one day I'll get the strength to go out But not today, not today