To Myself

I hate you, 
I never liked you,
Who would?
And why someone, should?

 You are a lonely night, 
And people don't like lonely nights,
Lonely nights are poisonous,
Lonely nights kill their victims until they're begging for death on their knees with their eyes bleeding exhausted from tears chocking them with their wailing fears while being spectated by their ones so dear. 

 You are a feverish fire, 
And no one likes feverish fires,
Feverish fires burn down the city of dreams and desires of the country of heart and roam around the planet of the brain like a tourist wandering to see the great ruins of the Roman Empire until it's tired.

 You are a ghastly ghost,
And no one cares about a ghastly ghost,
A ghastly ghost wanders alone on the road to destruction while its brain remains fretfully in the future and its body rotting in the present rested at the bed,
A ghastly ghost is alive whereas a ghost is just dead.

 What a puppet!
Of your parents you are,
How are your tears in the jar?
You are a nobody, no one
Suffering in the heat of the sun,
Burning and burning and burning,
But why aren't you from your mistakes learning?

 I apologise,
I am so sorry for,
Letting you down. 
For the ashes of the pictures in the drawer,
For always making you act like a clown. 

You are just a human,
   Who can blame you ?
    You try so hard,
   And all the things that you do,
Always keeping up your guard.
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Empress Avatar
May 10, 2025 at 8:39 AM
Dear Anne, Sometimes we have those moments where we feel all those emotions and thoughts about ourselves! And youv expressed in such a sincere manner! And i love how youv used night and feverish fires etc to describe yourself here as youv wanted to! The flow and intense manner youv articulated your lines is truly soul hitting! Pleasure reading this! Sending you light always
Winter Avatar
May 10, 2025 at 9:36 PM
Dear I E, thank you for the visit, I really appreciate it. Thank you so much for writing such a beautiful note, you've understood the meaning I was trying to convey in this poem. I appreciate you! <3 Best, Anne
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May 9, 2025 at 11:40 AM
Oh Anne what a very real and honest write….heart touching….Debx
Winter Avatar
May 10, 2025 at 2:27 AM
Dear Deb, thank you so much for your lovely note! Best, Anne
Rodrigues Avatar
May 9, 2025 at 6:11 AM
So emotive! Fantastic descriptions! Oh how we share the life of humanity! Hugs ~ Kim
Winter Avatar
May 9, 2025 at 6:30 AM
Dear Kim, thank you so much! Best, Anne
Rodgers Avatar
May 8, 2025 at 6:08 AM
Dearest Anne, your words cracked open my heart. I see the pain, the raw honesty, but also the fierce courage it takes to write these truths. You are not a lonely night or a ghost but you are a brilliant friend whose words matter deeply. Even in darkness, your voice brings light. You are loved, flaws and all, just as you are. Spring Blessings, My Dear Friend, Daniel
Winter Avatar
May 8, 2025 at 7:33 AM
My dearest friend, I feel truly blessed to have you as my friend. I am truly grateful for your kindness, empathy, and ability to see the best in me. Your words mean a lot to me, My Dear Daniel. With love and gratitude, Anne
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May 6, 2025 at 2:57 AM
Hello Anne, this a brilliant write, I also have talks like this from time to time. Like you said We are just a human. Sending Blessings your way, fellow poet.
Winter Avatar
May 6, 2025 at 6:20 PM
Dear Zyrool, thank you so much for writing such a heartfelt and thoughtful comment. Our perfections and imperfections make us beautifully human. My friend, I appreciate you, Anne
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