Tired of This Life

When things went wrong, this is what used to make everything right I used to enjoy it, but now I’d rather avoid it I used to love going out drinking every week and meeting girls every night I’ve had my fun with partying, but now I’m tired of this life I lost my mind a while ago, but now I’m thinking again I had my fun, but now I’m tired of strip clubs and drinking games I’m 27 now; I’m too old to be acting young and immature I broke some girls hearts, I just hope I never made them feel insecure A broken childhood made me feel worthless as a man I’m finally starting to see that I have my own purpose in my hands I used strippers and alcohol to hide the pain I was feeling inside Was I incapable of love or was I just unwilling to try? I can’t tell you how many times I cried alone with a drink in my hand I’m my own biggest critic, but I still care about what you think of the man I’m at the point where I’d rather be single than going out to see how many numbers I can get I need a girl who has more to offer than just what’s underneath her dress I’m ready to find something real, but I will take my time I just hope my self-judgement for my mistakes will escape my mind I used to love going out drinking and partying every night But I’ve had my fun with that and now I’m tired of that life