Tired

I want to shout out I'm not OK,but I got to be strong put on a face every day. The truth is I'm tired and I don't see a way out, the moment I think I found one I fill myself with doubt Why do I do this,what's the message...moved so many times in my head I can't remember addresses I want ppl to see how destroyed I really am,but when it comes time to talk I shut like a clam. I shut down and hide inside hoping nobody sees,I smile in their face because my pain comes with a fee. I don't wanna make you sad,I don't wanna make you cry, the main reason I can't say goodbye. I'm tired of being the glue to someone else's broken heart,tired of smiling while my world is ripped apart. Years of abuse have taught me well,you can't count on anyone...not even yourself Too much pressure to everyone,but even harder on your shoulders,just like the earth one day everything smolders. I don't quite wanna die,but living is so rough,especially when you're tired of being so tough.