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Thrown Away

Thrown away



Thrown away
To have your love and trust
Just thrown away
Is what its like to be betrayed

Children lost
But the childhood remains
Thrown away
Is all that remains

To eat at your own heart
Everyday
To swallow all the times
You could not say
Not describe in anyway
How 
I love you

Thrown away
Children last so it seems
To escape at last
From the haunted dreams
Of thrown away

To wake up and not believe in anything
Unable to touch 
A single thing
To open your eyes each and every day
Is what its like to be
To be thrown away

Children smile or so it seems
An innocent mask to drown out screams
A confusion of stabs to hide behind
A quiet curtain
In the mind

And there is no confidence
Not in anything
There is no love or trust
No not even in the crouching corner
Or the cowering cringe
Of self protecting arms and hands

There only one safety
The safety within
The blank and awful darkness
Sucking you in
And throwing your life away

Every door in your soul is closed
Every smile a moment of betrayal
One life to believe
One life to become
Someone
Who
Wasn’t
Isn’t
Thrown away

Copyright © Colin Mitchell Williams | Year Posted 2009

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Kristin Reynolds Date: 3/29/2009 2:00:00 AM Man...this was (is within that small voice of a child that will always exisit within me) me. thrown away..twice scourned, if it were not for my Grandmother saving my life literally, God knows where I'd be now. a haunting, all too real poem. love, Kristin P.s-I'm well, just really really busy writing a novel that suits this poem well. :) Login to Reply

Aleera De La Keur Date: 3/27/2009 8:58:00 PM Very sad write. Its painful to be a throw away child, even as you get older, the pain never really goes away, other things just mask it. This poem REALLY hit home, and while for you, I hope it is fantasy, but for those of us that have endured this painful plight, you described it perfectly. Great write, Love a throw away child.....Aleera Login to Reply

Sharon Winter Date: 3/27/2009 6:28:00 PM This is so painful and difficult to read, like a knife in the heart. Having trouble commenting, it is just making me cry. So sorry Colin. No child should be thrown away, no one. Love, Shar Login to Reply

Christopher Higgins Date: 3/27/2009 4:49:00 PM Brother you did an outstanding job painting the pain...lack of trust...hurt..once the trust is gone it seems to affect ever area of one's life....you did a great job with this piece. Login to Reply

Lucinda Bulger Date: 3/27/2009 2:03:00 PM May we all realize that we have a bigger purpose in our lives.... :) and beyond the blue of the sky, and the oceans depth at night... Loved this profoundly expressed piece! Thank you for sharing it. It is truly a pleasure to read your work that so often provokes thought. My best regards to you and a certain writing success to come, Lucinda Login to Reply

Lucinda Bulger Date: 3/27/2009 2:00:00 PM I told her gently that she did not have to hurt me to make me realize I had to get it together, that it actually worked negatively upon me.. getting terrible result. Although, with repect I told her how I knew deeply that she just wanted me to do better. "I am me" I said, I cannot be anything but that. ~smile Colin, we all have been thrown away by someone, not to mention how society preys on weakness. Jesus Himself, on the cross said "why has thou forsaken me?" cont~ Login to Reply

Lucinda Bulger Date: 3/27/2009 1:55:00 PM You know Colin, I have struggled most of my life by being "thrown away" especially from my mother. She is 77, a very stern woman that has always at her best gave me ridicule and negativity for my positve in life... sad, but true. My dad, always loved me for who I was, giving me lessons in life, while she never had the time with her worldly pressures. Just today, when speaking to her about a conversation we had a couple days ago: where she made me out to be someone I definitely wasn't... cont~ Login to Reply