Through Sickness And

So many ups and downs Smiles turned frowns I have so much to say Then silence surrounds My wheels are in motion Spinning too quick I can't keep going I take a hard hit All the while Your pace is steady You give me a smile As if, to see if I'm ready Where have you been Where the Hell did you go This pain that I'm in Does it not even show Do you think I am pleading That I cause my own bleeding That I chose this life Or way of thinking Despite the rest, my heart's still beating No bumps or bruises that you're seeing Does this explain your lack of grieving Is my diagnoses just too deceiving Whatever the case may be Despite what you think you see You made a promise Before God, to me To escort me through the worst of times To continue loving, with a heart that's blind To always look back, never leave me behind But I'm alone in the dark Time is no more I no longer take part In searching the shore I have crabs for days An abundance of shells But the calm of your face Is a forgotten smell