Three Messengers

Old and ugly and well married is the visage
that I carry, and yet, there is another world
that keeps opening up its magic door.
It sends me notes and emissaries
that I could be, 
I should be much more than what I am.

The first message, that I was aware of
came to me in the high desert where 
I sat Walden-like by a pool trying to 
get back to the source, I'm told, is
within us all.

Suddenly I saw a flurry
a mile across the valley floor,
a point took flight and became
a mystic preying mantis
that picked my shoulder as a perch.

Mid day church bells rang 
at that moment and I watched
the sound reverberate
shaking bushes and trees
down the valley, scattering
birds and small animals.

Yet the mantis on my shoulder
calmly sat, cocked its head,
and in its eyes there was a question.

I replied to the mantis' query that
"I was old and ugly and well married and
I am simply not quite ready,
but keep the offer open and 
I will be ready soon."

After a month of worrying that
perhaps I had gone too far,
in refusing to go through an open door,
I summoned it again.
Right there in my backyard I heard
a flurry and found a grasshopper perched
where you had perched before.
The question in its eyes left no doubt
it again was you.

I replied that I just wanted to make sure 
that the offer you had proffered still
was mine to take.
You flew away as I explained that
"I was old and ugly and well married and
simply still not quite ready but keep the offer open,
and I'll be ready soon."

Years went by and I forgot the magic,
indeed, avoided magic.
I went to a marriage yesterday,
I sat alone, away from the others,
on a bridge, by a pond,
amongst tall pines and redwoods.
I thought again of the mystic mantis.

Suddenly you were there.
You came out of a crowd of happy guests
and crossed into my solitary space.
You touched my shoulder and my hand
and kept it there for the fastest hour.
We talked about nature and 
books we had both read,
the giant puppets you made,
and about things 
I'd never tell a stranger.
I looked into your eyes
and realized
that we had met at least
twice before and saw the familiar offer.
In my mind I pleaded for more time because
I am old and ugly and well married,
but please, please keep the offer open
because I'll be ready soon.
Suddenly you were gone.
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Fernandez Avatar
January 19, 2016 at 9:41 PM
I like it. I find it to be original. I don't understand 'ugly' because taken out, it still reads good.
Bocsa Avatar
January 19, 2016 at 1:00 PM
Wonderful poem of a luminous poet.You`d never tell a stranger of wonders and miracles, of joy and sorrow like life itself teaches us to be ready to tell that unique exerience that actually gathers common recollections.This is the magic story of the story teller.You are a great heart covering the world entire, thus a great poet .Best regards.
Keogh Jr. Avatar
January 16, 2016 at 11:09 AM
This is one strong and sure in it's execution and it has a mystic quality that gives a resonance that keeps one reading. It is almost on it's way to being a fable. This one is solid and can stand on it's own with no more than a light polish. I hope this helps. GK
Goff Avatar
January 15, 2016 at 7:58 AM
Alixo... unreal quality write....completely needed this today...will print for future, when jet-pac needed.... especially like the "floating" sensation as time elapses....very good poem....to mine faves, as Ruben would say....jimbo
Morjin Avatar
January 15, 2016 at 2:04 AM
Very Inspirational, love the story, is the mantis a loved one who has passed away? or is it just a bride that regrets her decisions and the mantis is still fluttering around somewhere in the world, waiting for her?, none the less very interesting story
Mo Avatar
January 15, 2016 at 1:25 AM
Nice poem Alixo.
Nicholls Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 7:43 PM
This gave me goosebumps absolutely beautifully written
Turner Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 4:28 PM
An easy read, the flow is good. To me, the poem shows conflict with personal demons and decision making. Very well written and good subject matter.
Devnath  Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 2:48 PM
Breath taking, for a while certainly there needs to perch too. An excellent poem my lovely friend. Loved always,bl
Sankey- Lewis Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 1:58 PM
From start to finish, I grazed and heard and saw what in the past was mine to heed as positives. Messengers comes in the strangest ways.
White Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 12:37 PM
I love the flow and intertwining gestures of nature and human. Always respectful never obscene. Yet flirtatious and direct. Lovely
Fox Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 12:33 PM
If you are not ready when the offer is made, at any time, then you will never be ready. I love the rhythm of this poem and the flow of time passing. Really a great write.
Anish Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 12:05 PM
Great personification in this poem! The ending was a little chilling! Peace & Love Matthew Anish
Flemmings Avatar
January 14, 2016 at 11:51 AM
This poem took my breath away and while reading it, I never pondered on when it would return. I patiently await more of your poems. This reminded me of something I wrote a while ago...thanks for taking me back to that place.
Eastman Avatar
January 4, 2012 at 10:20 AM
Quite an intriguing poem and so well written. It has an echo quality in my mind. Congratulations on the 1st round of the PoetrySoup International Contest. I expect to see you again.
Brown Avatar
January 3, 2012 at 8:10 AM
Congrats on making it through the 1st round of PoetrySoup International Contest. Wishing you the best Ahellas. Love, Carol
Brown Avatar
September 27, 2011 at 2:47 PM
Congratulations on having your poetry featured this week Ahellas. Love, Carol
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September 26, 2011 at 8:06 PM
Congrats Ahellas on your poem "Three Messengers" being featured
Ross Jr. Avatar
August 7, 2011 at 12:33 AM
Intriquing write with lots to ponder I like ite very much...with love...old Jack
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