Three Days Saved

It's been nine years, I have counted the tears- they have made trails of guilt worried into my heart then filled with loneliness and bitter despair but by your grace I have been shown... For the first time, in these nine years, I have not wept nor held a vigil to honor our grief though the loss still burns, this time it is transformed Peace from your love still reaches through death and through your eternal love I am reborn It is Good Friday. When God took your spirit home and left me dying to know, how to love him for his sacrifice when he asked me to give up you? How do I heal this death and rise with you in his arms? Through your love I was born, and in your arms I grew and it has been your love the kept me whole that taught me how to be reborn for even though your body has gone your words lost in the wind and breath no more The essence of grace and strength you lived - it grows still in your daughter soul My being and existence came from your womb my heart and mind shaped by your enlightenment I have lived a life you gave me and for once I live it in pride to honor your sacrifice your words giving me the guidance I'd lost nine years ago. Alas, I've come to know, that as you died and went home with our Lord, you saved me from my death not in your dying, my grief and love can attest, but in your living strength and loving example you showed me how to live a life open to our Father's gift We knew it would not wait, but the parting was too fast. I sat in thought three days before your sleep and asked, "In three days time my savior died, I wonder hence what of my soul will rise with his?" And now sitting Easter morning, holding my sons candy-filled basket, I realized Three days passed. He took you home Friday morn, but left me love, that eternal love that never dies whose comfort is unending I honor your love by giving it to my children and Easter morning I felt your hug, your kiss, and knew you have never left me . Though God took you home Mom I know you have never left me for as our Savior died and rose you too still live in my heart, showing me proof our Father's blessings because you, my love, are my soul and all ready there there fore I am strong enough to give this pain up to honor his sacrifice and transcend, to be humbled by the grace and mercy that could forgive such lost lambs as I