Thoughts of Nothings

My head is filled with thoughts of nothing When time arose a rose was budding Slithered through the cracks of concrete Was the beat of my heart pounding Sit me down with a pick me up And Pick me up when I come down What is this place that seems to keep me Tugging on my soul I'm seething Never do I ever feel real enough This page, I'ma fill it up and when it's done I'll still feel empty Time is ticking and it's pissing me off I get lost in the sound I get lost in the crowd But where am I now. Lost Nowhere particular Thoughts linear To my dreams I'm perpendicular It's the saddest emotions That Seem to soak me Feeling like the frayed fabric On your favorite clothing The questions I've asked for years still goes unoticed Or there's questions I have that are still unspoken Shrug of the shoulder Is the closing for this notion I don't care and even when I do its only for a moment Feeling kinda low Not low enough to slit my throat But low enough to smoke to cope Swallow vodka but won't choke My sober mind is like a mine Bombs explode, I lose my mind Confused at times, losing time Don know what to do with mine Direction is my perplexion Which way is up Cuz I'm still, still stagnant Though, still standing I feel stranded The doubt I have doubles When I'm in trouble Like How u gone make it to the rainbow's end Standing in a puddle Where's the shuttle We all want what we want all of a sudden When that time isn't now We shutting down Its either all or nothin But it's nothing... now