Thoughts Inside Those Walls

as i lay here and wonder how many times i went wrong
i realized i have lived the drug life way to long 
i lived day to day chacing that high! for what?
i have lost everything and now i know why
getting bit by that dog is what kept me sick
my life wasted tick.. tick... tock...
they say that one is to many and a thousand is never enough
i never dreamed trying to quit would ever be this tough
never knowing when your first time will be your life
why is it so hard to put this life in the past
this problem i have will it ever go away?
its something i live with each and everyday
when i look back on all the things i have ever done
all the regrets i have all weight a ton
all the stealing, lying, ducking catches up so fast
thinking if only i could get that last blast
weather i am smoking, shooting, or snorthing a line 
now i know i cant stay numb all the time 
i have turned my back on everyone i love 
now i look at the sky above
please give me the strength to get this monkey off my back
its time i grow up and get my life back on track
in the end its only jails, death, and institutions
so living a clean and sobor life is the only solution
so the next time i think about getting high 
i am taking a risk that this time i could die
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July 10, 2018 at 1:33 PM
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