Thoughts

Does it bother you to be alone? Only when I sleep. Your dreams are nightmares of death. But I can't help it. Why do I suffer more than most? Nobody knows,nobody cares. But is it wrong to wish they did? Was I destined to suffer? It makes me want to be alone. So you dont cause others the pain you know? You are loved. I know I just can't feel it. The more I love the more I feel alone. I don't think I belong here. Death can ease your pain. I want to live. But if you do... You will hurt them. I just want to know why. Why what? Why do I suffer? Why are they glad to see me suffer? Do they hate me that much? I know I'm not perfect, I just want to feel, To feel like I matter, Like I'm loved, Like I'm not alone. Iam hated. You deserve it. What you can do with words... What can I do with words? Write your feelings down. Why? Even if someone cared They couldn't help me. Why can't someone care about me like I care about them? Your a psycho. I know. Your heart is black. I know. Then how can you love anything? But I do. Doesn't that mean anything? Not to them.