This Thoughts of Killing My Self
There is no one else to blame, I cause my own loneliness. I am the reason why my heart is broken in two. I looked in the mirror and at that person I barely knew. Who the hell am I? And who I've been talking to Because these voices in my head are always responding
Conversing with myself because I feel that I am all that I have And I will take the blame, I am not trying to point without damn fingers
I can't escape the rain, whatever happens, the pain always remains
I stay away from everyone I love
No matter what I do, I still feel that I am not enough, would you mind if I simply decided to end everything? And that next time you will see me at my funeral .... help me out of this depression
And if you do, how the hell can you see me fall?
Don't you see that my walls are closing?
Can't you hear the pain and suffering I have?
I need help, I'm just afraid to ask
I'm not in control anymore, I'm just waiting to crash
I'm so screwed I know
I've been dying slowly
Please take away my pain
I can not stay anymore I want to be quiet winged by my grandmother that I need so much
I isolate myself because I'm ashamed of this
Because everyone knows that I hate the fact that I exist
I let out my secrets and everyone knows the truth
They know that my suicidal tendencies are self-induced
I know there is no excuse why I should want to end my life I am aware that the grass is greener on the other side I should be grateful
So where is the disconnection
When I feel happy, why does sadness always get in the way? It is as if my misery was predetermined. I try to smile, but deep down I am always weak and hurt. I know the devil is near and is always on the prowl. I feel his presence every time the sun begins to rise. I have been searching for so long. that will remain on permanently
But that light seems to fade forever
Maybe the darkness is simply impossible to evade I'm so screwed I know
I've been dying slowly
Please take away my pain
I can't stay anymore
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